I've never travelled. Locked up in that idea I went halfway around the world, I saw a single landscape, I visited only one country, I met only three men, a dog, a pig and a monkey, just one woman and dozens of animals and trees. "How many trees have there been in your life?", I use to ask myself when I lose hope. Trees don't like us too much. I don't think to them as friends but they help me to get hope back. I mean, who wants friends with such enemies!
I've never studied. Damned for a sin from which I could neither learn anything nor ask for forgiveness, I approved everything until God stopped believing me. Later, science ceased understanding me, money stopped needing me, democracy stopped listening to me, nature stopped looking for me and today, I no longer entertain culture. Despite that, I never stopped believing enough to write my own traps:
Trap 1. If you think it's a game, you'll learn how to obey. Trap 2. If you do not believe, you'll write it. Trap 3. If you believe, you'll never hear yes again.
Reading books is the promise of paradise. To read books is to steal to the wounded child you've been the opportunity to explain by himself. To read books is the grown up way of being humiliate in order to be happy. If you refuse to read books you end up having the trees as your enemies which is the most obvious way to reach the earth. Education is sacred and that is why it shouldn't be in the hands of teachers or priests. No priest or professor who does not go to the gym has any credibility anymore. The proof of that is that they're still murderers. Read, travel, activities of priests, teachers and of all those who do accuse and seek for a shelter in that trench over there, far away from the eternal struggle.
I've never got a job. Same as priests and teachers, I've never got a job either and I chose to do what I felt me least able to do, which is, to venerate the father. To get a job is to earn the right to disobey the father which means a resignation that is within the reach of few people. So far, I've just reached the right to not dress the habit which is the right to do not win.
I've never had a project. Too extremist to be violent, the future didn't give me any chance. In the meanwhile, I keep writing words like never or always or verbs like is or are only to compel my past from forgetting me.
I've never been here before. I know it because I do not have rights and also I can see it in the eyes of cats, children and the dead. Men and women abandoned us. Where are the human beings that promised us with? Cats, children and the dead do not seem to care too much, so, why should I be worried? While I look for my place in the society of the waiting cats and children, paradise is widening, leaving the dead without any place to go.